lavanderblues

Sunday, November 14, 2004

today.

hmm today was an interesting day.
got woken up by my maid at 930 with an amazingly heavy breakfast. egg sandwich and all the cocktail sandwiches she could find in the fridge. gosh i don't know where she got the idea i had such a large stomach capacity. so anw, i downed the whole thing to please her, and ate like 2 strands of kuay teow for lunch hahaha.
Seriously, i think i have a low tolerance level for food. put anything in front of me, and the likelihood of seeing the plate clean in a short while's time is quite high. haiz no wonder im getting fat. in sec sch, i had this maid who could cook really really well. pizzas, pies, cakes, whatnot... and i realised that although i grew only 6cm since sec1, i put on just about 10kg since. haiz. i was only 49 in sec1!!! madness. thank goodness i lost some weight recently.

but yes, i digress. apart from the short episode of feeling sad, stressed, distressed, fat and ugly in the afternoon, which was followed by a long run that made me feel loads better... the rest of the day was pretty much alright. watched how to lose a guy in 10days on hbo, that was interrupted by selene calling and both of us chatting about post As, shopping, prom, and other rubbish liddat. it was great to talk to her again. i was beginning to think i'd lost a friend already, what with her always being with hweeying and zh lately, and everything.. but i guess some things u just can't lose. sel's been like my 'sister' since we were tots. haha. so anw, i didnt quite learn how to lose a guy in 10days, cos our phone call lasted the entire exact duration of the 'how girls disgust guys' part. and all i got to see was the sweet, lovey dovey part. not that i minded tho, haha. shows like these never fail to infuse u with blissful thoughts of love and possibility. then of course, harsh reality sets in... inevitably.

this came in the form of a sex and the city episode AFTER the movie, which completely threw apart the perfect, ideal notions of love and whatever. haha.
and well as u can probably see, i did very little work today. just 2 lousy chem paper2s, about to start on my third. argh.
this sucks. i'm completely too slack. i need a slap, a smack and a reality check. (HOWEVER, i do not need a swim in the sea, however much u'd like to help me with tt... *smack*)
alevels might be ending in all of 15 days from this second, but till then, whether i fail miserably or get my 4As is still a huge question mark.
sad reality.
study time.

lin~*
12:15 am