lavanderblues

Monday, January 31, 2005

whee!

haha my life is busyfying and tiring! as usual. i like cannot sit still liddat. its crazy, but im really happy with all the new stuff im learning!
yesterday i broke the 1mth dance emptiness and went for lyrical jazz with huiling! my muscles ache now... haha. feels good to feel them achign again, budden tt means i'll start getting my bulky legs back again too hai. sadness. i like dancing haha, esp the kind with no qualms and no worries about exams, and hence no one to scream at u even if you're just anyhowing the entire lesson away. whee! think i'll go for hiphop sometime soon haha. my body aching for more alr!

and today i'm still high from driving, haha. really smooth today, i braked really nicely (not like it matters to the examiner but heck it makes me happy haha), and i learnt how to do 3pt turns and u-turns! haha. happy!

and also high from malay! saya boleh cakap sedikit bahasa melayu! sedikit larh ya, tetapi, sedikit sedikit jadi bukit! haha. happy. started talking to my mummy in malay alr muahahah. yes.
and curiously, typing my long long lab report for LSM1101 pract makes me happy too! n studying for final theory even. im crazy lor.

in conclusion, so my life wld be perfect if i werent so tired all the time, and if i werent already behind on my nus stuff, and all the lects just get cheemer and cheemer... and tests are coming up despite my london trip (feels weird to go london just b4 CAs. but then again its my hols! haha). yes. i really need time to myself and slack ard at home now. yes. then maybe the huilin you see ard wunt be so sleepy with eyebags, and struggling to walk properly. yes.
gah tmr after lect gotta rush to commonwealth to teach tuition.

think i took on too much. argh! TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i cant believe im sayin that! haiz.
thank god cny is next wk. got BREAK!

lin~*
10:39 pm

Sunday, January 23, 2005

bored stiff.

haiyah. bored stiff.
should start looking for stuff to do in london when i get there. any recommendations on good, cheap places to go? haha. shall be going on this budget trip w my mum, for the imperial interview. ohwells.

i was just reading baorong's blog, and her disappointment at getting rejected by cambridge. and i remember how much i really really really wanted to get in too. last year b4 prelims, i spent nights when i shld have been studying, reading stuff on cambridge, surroundings, staring transfixed at the screen, wishing, just wishing that i'd get in... wanted much more than she did to go there. budden when i got the letter tt told me i got rejected after the pool, i felt nothing. no pang of remorse, no twinge of disappointment, no nothing. so i wonder, was it the excitement of going to imperial interview that masked the pain, or did i even want to go there in the first place? haha hmmz. maybe i'll actually feel it when i get there, cos going to take one day to visit cambridge, tour courtesy of herman haha who's promised to take me around, try punting and everything yay. then i'll actually see everything that i missed haiyah.

ohwells. this wkend was spent getting into the cny mood. went to chinatown on friday, walked everywhere, saw loads of stuff, ate everything, super fun i tell you haha. and yest went to the food fair at taka and bought dragon beard candy, and tried all the samples. today went to the row of flowergardens at thomson there, notably far east flora, and had fun seeing all the new year plants too. yeah. will probably be baking new year cookies next wkend yeps.

granny going for a minor op on wed/thurs. some of the relatives coming down. good for them to come down and show some concern for their mum when they dunt bother to do so usually, but bad for me cos i dun really like them around. haiyah.
i guess there's nothing wrong with them, just that they're so hypocritical and fake, and so mcp tt the guys just sit around waiting to be served. even some of the aunties just laze around yelling for stuff thinking they're in some free holiday chalet cos we've got a maid and they dunt. that irritates me to the core larh. my mum and i get treated like maids too, expected to wait on them hand and foot. oh wells.
if i get some mcp husband who sits around expecting me to just serve him day and night even after a hard long day of work for me, i'll just divorce immediately man. forget it lor, i'm so not going to do tt.

geez i do sound like im in a bad mood, haha but i'm not.

lin~*
8:54 pm

Thursday, January 20, 2005

gahses.

was in an ultra high happy hyper mood yesterday and early today. that got watered down when i fell asleep instead of running/ discovered i gained 1kg (expectedly since i ate and slacked so much)/mum started becoming antisocial and putting down all the exciting plans i had for uk trip alr/jr started asking me alot of senseless qns abt nus med that i dunt know and can't care to know right now. have to get this mood back up b4 i go out tmr. then tmr will be fun. otherwise will just get damn hot and bored, and tt wont be fun rite.

someone said i was very forgiving. i guess tt's qt accurate. when sth happens and ppl have to pangseh me or do sthg "bad" to me, i always dismiss it, and just forget abt it. it takes alot for me to hold a grudge or 'mind' sthg. eg. today when i went to buy my bak chor mee, the uncle accidentally put too much soya sauce or some other thing, and was apologising profusely, and i was like smiley and even started chatting to him and his mum who were at the stall. haha they prob thot i was crazy. good and bad larh. sometimes i end up feeling neglected, cos like ppl think i dun mind so they just push me aside and pick me up as and when i feel like it. wunt say names. but yes. ohwells haha.
no pt bearing grudges right? :) haha. yay.
i shld go sleep early and wake up fresh and happy.

lin~*
10:07 pm

1st totally free day in eons!

haha yay im still on a high frm a tremendously satisfying day yesterday. whee! life is good! =)
woke up at 8, and lazed around in bed reading till 1145 when i decided i cannot be a pig anymore! haha then i got up and walked to bedok market and tapaoed bak chor mee (tt i had been craving for since last night...), and sugarcane! and went home happy to eat! haha. that is the fullest lunch i had in eons pls. goodness.
so anyhow, i'm high and the guys are finally out of camp after their confinement! hurray! i wonder how's my sons. don hasnt booked out yet cos he's pro commando. john! where are u???
haha.
nus is getting better and better. lessons are lessons larh seriously. i nodded to sleep in the last prof nga lecture about mitosis and meiosis ("+" and "-" E. coli going about their "business" producing little E. coli), who successfully confused me and my well ingrained concepts on m&m so i have decided to ignore his stuff for the moment. haha.
but, i finally found the other advanced placement prog ppl!!! yay! spent a 2nd immensely satisfying 2hr break between lessons yesterday at central lib, exploring the lib and eating at the macs there. (the 1st immensely satisfying 2hr break was when huiling came to have lunch w me last wk, and lawrence too! yay!) the other breaks between my lessons, which are abt 2-3hrs long have been spent either stoning in the sci canteen reading, or in the sci library also reading. haiyah. prospect of boring long long breaks have finally flown off. and seriously. its the people who make the entire experience fun lor.

and nus has finally decided to do sthg about us apart frm chucking us into the mainstream of nus life without an inkling of what and how to go about doing things. invited the measly grp of us for an important sounding "breakfast with the Dean" on 2nd Feb, which i suspect is a feedback session in disguise. darn. can't they just give us the breakfast and leave us alone? hahaha. i sound so darn cynical.

and cheryl (nus friend) has picked up frm where limin (cousin) left off in educating me about friendster and making me use it hahaha. i finally got around to adding people to my measley list and huiling wrote a nice testimonial about me! so sweet i shall proceed after this to write hers too hahaha. yay.

and well well well. cleaning my room is so not going well at all right now. muahaha. my room is inhabitable. or at least hostile towards human locomotion (aka walking) in it. i will consider uploading a photo to show all of you who refuse to believe that the usually neat-as-a-pin huilin finally has a messy room that beats all of urs hands down muahahahha hahaha. :) shall have to get back to cleaning it soon... like today... too!

going chinatown and other places tmr, explore s'pore like a tourist -- the cheap way. i'm in a financial desert right now. not earning, yet spending (not just on food, but malay, driving lessons, soon to be dance lessons, shopping, TRANSPORT that is so darn ex now). i live on $50 a week. its amazing huh. haha i dunno how i do it.

k byebye! haha

lin~*
1:03 pm

Monday, January 17, 2005

woah...

haha gosh. today i went driving, lunch w selene, shopping at suntec and chinatown, sel's hse to eat dinner, malay classes, got rejected by cam, and discovered im flying to london next mth all in the space of 1 measly day! goodness.
too bad about cambridge i guess.. i so wanted to go there hai. but the plus pt is that i suddenly discovered i received sthg frm imperial long time ago abt interviews there, but i think the email bounced so i nv got it. and they just sent me another email. so im flying down. with whom i dunno yet. hope selene can come w me! or is anyone going? maybe we can go together! hahaha. yes.
gosh.
my darling's down today. so sad :(

lin~*
10:30 pm

the attack of the old worksheets...

yes. the worksheets, lect notes are returning to haunt me.
packing today, i had to restack them and all... and i kept thinking "did i study hard enough for As? will i get the 4As i need for med school?"
its really freaky then i got freaked out thinking that i'd screw up my As and have to take a gap year cos i really havent made any provisions for studying anything other than med. otherwise i'll end up in nus sci fac where i am now also. haiyah.
saddened.

lin~*
1:22 am

Sunday, January 16, 2005

ahh... choo!

haha. my room is dusty.
esp the corners on my extremely long desk where i havent touched in more than 2yrs.
gah. i have so much things to get rid of!
anyone wans jc notes/ws/test papers/textbooks?
i'd only be too happy to sell/give... haha.
and now i have so many empty files sitting ard in lonely stacks on the floor.
i used more paper in 2003-04 during jc than in 1999-2002 in secsch. amazing rite? gosh. i bet i studied harder. which seriously isn't true haha. i was more hardworking in secsch.
ohwells.

lin~*
3:57 pm

Saturday, January 15, 2005

yay i ran!

haha yes i finally mastered the conviction to run just now! and i discovered that after not running for 1mth (exactly 1 mth), i lost 2kg, and gained stamina! amazing haha. hmmmm. food for thought eh?
now to kick myself out of the daze i've been in since dec, and actually get my life back together. must clear my room up. then i must do my tutorial ( yes!!!!!!!! argh! tutorial! LSM1101 tutorial on biochem! like what the heck??? ) and read up for the next class. ohwells.
tmr shall be a ME day.
tmr i will... pack my room. study. hmm... call someone to talk. yes. ok set.
i feel like playing tennis! hahaha -- and driving too! such a torture that for the next wk my driving school no slot for me to go for class. hais.

lin~*
11:15 pm

back again!

haha gosh. i havent updated in about 2wks maybe? less but thereabouts. anyhow, i feel like a freak now, filling up my days with some kind of weird feverish fervour... and the rest of the free time, if i'm not trying to find some sort of society i can volunteer at, or spending time with lawrence or other frens, i'm like busy poring through my diary, trying to find other stuff to fill it up.
things at nus are going great... lessons are alright i guess, the practs are fun... and i'm slowly making friends. being the only rj person there, at least 1 yr younger than everyone else, and taller as well (eunice herself said how my height intimidates other ppl frm approaching me already haha), with no orientation of any sort, with all the science yr1s already pally pally with everyone else does not really help. but i'm slowly getting there. occasional periods between classes where i'll sit somewhere, stone and read by myself for 2hrs still occur... but i guess its alright larh. just had a field trip to the zoo yesterday, and thank god for joel, whom without i'd have felt super extra (again), going around, painfully trying to strike up conversations with people who look like they much rather look at the monkey in the cage instead of you. anyhow, lectures at uni are diff frm jc in that the lecturers dunt try to rush through every single slide. there are frequent breaks, and well, some of the lecturers are actually really good. and in the practs, having 1 TA to 12 students really helps alot. am reminded of the numerous "miss teh! mammm!" during bio practs where she'd rush around trying to talk to all of us, feeling like a sheep (cos we call her maaaa-am).

i'm supposed to be running now. sheesh. another lack of self motivation to get my butt and sweat glands going. gah. have to rush off now, and be back by 645 so tt can go for dinner at club. haiz.
fattening life. zero exercise, tho i admit i've been walking alot.
and my mum seems to think i know EVERYTHING about bio that she comes to me for every little thing about her dear new plant that has water droplets on its leaves and looks like its drying up. ohwells

lin~*
6:17 pm

Monday, January 03, 2005

yelch.

haha. yelch. currently feeling fat and bloated after horrendously oily (but nice) soft shell crab at cafe cartel, that made me feel ultra queasy/pukey/fat/yucky the rest of the day. haha ohwells. at least it was nice rite? and i got my favourite hengjin cha (aka almond milk) from the famous kimberly street stall in penang to look forward to later, plus lotsa stories of my uncle and his gf's exploits in penang! haha yay! excitingness. except for the getting fat part. gah haha.

mm meet the fockers is really really nice btw, practically the only show that i can confess to really actually having enjoyed in quite awhile. yeah. quite explicit though, and well i dunt quite understand alot of the um explicit stuff, and mean lawrence just wouldnt explain to me ohwells.

today's first day of school, first day of orientation, first full day i'm in s'pore since the new year... and i woke up with a huge mosquito bite on my face muahahhaha. so anw, it was alright, except i think that the new sch's campus is so maddeningly huge, that everything's so darn dispersed. got so tired walking around with serjin looking for all our grand-ogs and buddies. gah. nonetheless brought back many fond memories, esp that one about me not remembering anyone's names at all, and they totally tiaoed me when we played wacko. maybe i will crash tmr haha.

tmr's first practical driving lesson! ahhhhhh! can't imagine me stepping on a pedal and causing a car to move. heh. abit scared but ohwells.

and the tsunami thing is so saddening. haiz.
oh and to all my guy friends enlisting on 6th, and don, who's enlisting into hendon on 7th, take care yeah!

lin~*
9:15 pm