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Friday, October 28, 2005

waiting for mummy to pick me up to go back home for the weekend now!!! *all excited and hyper* haha, and we might be even going to ikea on the way back! *claps!* hehe... tmr's granny's bday! looking forward to all the good food! =)

yesterday was fun! haha for the first time in i dunno how long, i went to cityhall after class with fiona to meet shiyun!! =)=)=) we spent some time walking around... i fell in love with various bags costing >$100 bleah... haha... cos im looking for one to replace my current white bag that's peeling badly bleah. cheap bags dun last sighs. made a couple of purchases from projectshop hehe... i bought a pretty wrap "sarong-ish" skirt for $15!!!!! haha original price was like $86, which means i got it at like 17% of the original price! hahaha... whee =) and got lawrence a shirt too. unfortunately it's abit form fitting for him, which is devastating cos i thot it was v nice. sighs. shld have gotten a bigger size.

anyhow, had a wonderful time with fiona and yun hehe... we walked up and down citylink mall, and then yun and i went to soup spoon and shared their wonderful mushroom pot pie! then got myself some stuff from cedele for brekkie today, and well she had this TREMENDOUS craving for brownies. so we went asearchin' for the PERFECT BROWNIE! hahaha... walked up and down and up and down, went to mrs field's, haagan daz, coffeeclub, starbucks etc... till we came to cafe cartel and she finally decided that she wants to eat the cafe cartel's brownie haha...

so we settled down into this comfy sofa thing to watch the last episode of america's next top model on her lappie (which i missed due to dunno what reason), and then her brownie came. its HUMONGOUS can??? haha 2 HUGE slabs of brownie with vanilla ice cream. hahahaha i bet she was in 7th heaven =) haha can't really say that i like it though, cos i prefer my brownies fudgey and sticky, whilst the cafe cartel ones are cakey. haha... just a matter of diff taste la. =) so we sat there for like 1.5hrs maybe just watching, eating, and chit chatting =) so nice to catch up with her after so long. bleah. i dunno y i dun meet up with her more. haha...

then went back to pgp, bumped into zhengtang and yongchin at buona vista mrt hehe... then headed to holland v to get lawrence n myself some coffee bean =) haha... he tried their new apple cinnamon caramel ice blended. damn fattening can??? i tried to ask for low fat but they dun come in low fat. bleah sorry darling... and i got myself their chai tea latte. haha my fave is act their double vanilla tea latte but how can they run out of vanilla powder? so icredulous. bleah.

so anyhow i ate better brownie today. hahaha... miriam made wonderful brownies!!!! and she gave liwei this huge slab (and liwei doesnt even know her!!! lucky pig!) haha and she offered me some, but liwei just decided to give his whole brownie to me cos i "need it more than him" *rolls eyes* haha.... its wonderful and simply perfect. fudgey, not too sweet, with nice crumbly parts which are the parts i love most. hahaha.. yay!

and oh yes i think anat is tough to study but ling makes it damn fun! haha... lots of memorisations to do, and today he arrowed me to ans like alot of his qns, starting with describing e structures of the stomach. bleah. totally cant rem the names of all the stuff like cardiac orifice, plyorus, pyloric orifice, incisura angularis, fundus, body, pyloric antrum etc. bleah. now can rem why just now cannot???? sighs. selective memory.

i wld have put up nice pretty pics here too, but my camera totally sucks la cant even upload pics now. bleah i want a canon ixus haha...

lin~*
6:03 pm

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

this week is YELLOW (and orange) week! hee..

opened my pgp fridge, and opened my plastic bag where i keep my stash of food, and well i have:

bunny-luv baby carrots (wonderful snack food!)
mangoes!
half a papaya,
yellow capsicum,
honey tomatoes (yellowish red one)
vit C effervescent tablets

everything's yellow! so interesting haha... maybe by fri i will turn yellow too =P hehe... hahaha... too much vit C right =P no larh jaundice is when u get hemolytic anaemia and too much bilirubin is in ur blood. (at least that's what i noe so far la...)

its been a pretty ok week so far... been less anti-social, and consequently having more fun (yay!)... yeah... but at the same time havent been so on par with work, so i suppose its a give and take thing. can't wait for the multiple holidays next week!!! get to go out, and can catch up on work! whee! and best of all, get to stay at home!!! =)

this sat's my granny's bday party.. hee invited lots of msian relatives. hope my aunties and uncles still rem they hv a mother deposited in my house and come to at least celebrate her bday. they're amazingly apathetic about their mum. sighs. i love my popo. she brought me up since i was born... cos my parents went to work so she was the one who did all the running around to chase me and catch me so that she can feed me... (haha i used to HATE eating. so i'd run around and refuse to chew and all that rubbish... bleah haha) ordered nice nice secret recipe cakes for her bday! yum =) granny's 86 already. so zai right? wonder if i'll ever live that long. but well she's a remarkable woman larh, so she def deserves it =)

lin~*
1:47 pm

Sunday, October 23, 2005

damn sad. after the recent spat against bloggers and "defamy", every single blog i see has disclaimers plastered all over the place, presumebly to protect the bloggers. its like... even the internet with its lack of boundaries along political and national lines and supposed international ambiguity, it isnt a place for FREE speech anymore.

lin~*
9:10 am

interesting saturday. watching something's gotta give on hbo now, after a tremendously filling and satisfying jap buffet dinner at ikoi, and well watching 2 50-ish ppl get intimate is mildly interesting. alot more passionate than the usual tho. ok no more comment ugh. but last word: diane keaton is incredibly hot even at her age.

mild nervous breakdown on fri again. bleah. get that pretty frequently lately. so liwei, if u ask me how i hold it up and cope and motivate myself again, i wun noe what to tell u, cos i dont. spending time w parents is therapeutic though. and am slowly weaning myself off the food dependency thing (depressed = food = overeat). well must infuse more recre into my life. really must must must. am sick of school with nothing else to look forward to after.

playhouse was really really fun today. wish i could upload some pics of it, but there's some prob with my pc detecting my digicam - as usual bleah. i seriously need a new digicam. a canon ixus maybe. ladida.

okay must must must get down to mugging tmr. fa on monday. and i dunt remember a thing. bleah. thanks for all the nice tags =) im over the uk thing i suppose. just another case of the grass is always greener on the other side. imagine if i went: no parents, no home (which i miss every single night when im in pgp - sorry rach for not gg shopping w u guys at heeren today, all i wanted to do was just to go home and immerse myself in its comforting comforts), no food, no familiar frens (even tho most of my nearest and dearest frens are overseas bleah) etcetcetc. yeah, ok i will be thankful for being here. i will.

lin~*
12:52 am

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

i officially regret not gg to imperial for med now. sighs.

took a long long 2hr run in the pouring, thundering rain today... it was rejuvenating.. and it was nice to go to bedok jetty after so long. esp since bedok jetty was isolated cos it was raining and everyone else escaped already, just staring at this siao char bo running about in the heavy rain, from their snug shelters. the sea turns dark green and opaque when it rains. ripples like mrs skipp's nice free movement scarves with the raindrops. sweat, rain (and tears maybe) mixing freely; it was raining so hard i wasnt even sure if i was crying anymore...

a bit sniffly now. bleah.

e running had nothing to do with imp. just a general am-sick-of-life-here feeling i suppose. nus is too muggy. hope my darling feels better. he's been sick the past 2days.

lin~*
11:26 pm

Saturday, October 15, 2005

the weekend's here!!! hallelujah! im at home! its wonderful! i had ben and jerry's from the wonderful wonderful scoop shop at suntec today! oatmeal cookie ice cream in their homemade fresh waffle cone! whee!!! why is the wkend only 2 days?? bweah.

btw, im curious to know who reads my blog. haha so if u do, pls tag just drop a note to say hi! so i noe u read; and u care enuff to surf to this miserable site haha =) hehe.. thankyou =)

lin~*
11:32 pm

whoosh *breathless*

had a tremendously wonderful run just now... haha i woke at 645 this morning and very spur-of-the-moment-ly decided to go for a long long run! got back just only =) hahaha

mm it was nice. ran from pgp up kent ridge hill, past kent ridge park, nacli, out to pasir panjang road, past pp wholesale mkt, west coast park, clementi, fong seng, and then back via nus internally from eusoff there!

can-barely-feel-my-legs-now

but saw loads of new stuff, new eating places to try out along pasir panjang rd, interesting trees and creatures, the world b4 it wakes up on a saturday morning... it was wonderful. on my way back, saw this bird:

saw a few of them actually, hopping along on the grass. i think its a common flameback female woodpecker (i went asearchin for it!) and well there might have been more on the trees. dunno. anyhow it was such a wonderous sight i just stood there watching them haha. wish i had a camera.

okay i have to run... shower. late-for-playhouse-deepa's-gonna-kill-me!!!!! WHEE! high.

lin~*
8:20 am

Thursday, October 13, 2005

random thoughts bweah.

v tired and sleepy. slept 4hrs or less every night this wk.

but studying in the library every night till it closes is good.

cripsy prata is good.

sci canteen western stall brownie is good.

sim lim square popiah is good.

peanut butter ice cream sandwich from those sell ice cream uncles at street corners is good.

food makes my world go round. (and body too)

a2 route jog is good. (that shld salvage it)

i discovered today (dennis and benjamin swears by it) that i exemplify a typical ectomorph.

(more about somatyping, as taught by saus today in pbl)

The endomorph is round, corpulent (fat) and pear-shaped. Legs have large bones and arms are shorter.

The mesomorph is broad-shouldered, thick-chested, narrow wasted, lean and muscular.

The ectomorph is slim and linear, with small bones, long arms and a thin neck.

IM SURE IM AN ECTOMORPH! haha i gain muscle SO EASILY. bweah. haha and fat too, tho i find that i can lose fat relatively easily. anyhow ppl are usually a combination of e 3, and i'd prob be a combi of ectomorph and mesomorph.

quit synergy. couldnt sustain the commitment. bweah. so sad. no more dance.

so much work to do!!! i used to think.. ok relax relax... if wenkien's not studying yet, it probably means u shldnt have to panic yet. but he's studying like mad now! im stressed! why is my batch so hardworking? haha why is biochem in med so pure hardcore mugging? ohwells. but since i got prof ling, ive come to enjoy anat much more, and well i think physio is pretty fun if u're not too zonked out to study it; which i unfortunately was on wed.

i like my new laptop sleeve. invested $30 (e cheapest of the type we cld find in sim lim) on a supposedly really good ZEROSHOCK laptop sleeve. good quality for the price. im happy. haha. to protect my wonderful powerbook. i wanted red. but they dun sell the other colours in Asia. i could have mail ordered from a website but it'd have cost me double the price. so nvm. black goes.

so chio right! =) =) =)

lin~*
8:08 pm

Saturday, October 08, 2005

had a nice day today =) i knew it was gg to be good from the moment i woke up! haha cos i went online and managed to chat to SELENE!!!!! =) i miss u dear, really havent seen u online in so long...

then, my darling picked me up, and we headed to GHIM MOH for breakfast! haha woah nice! i ate ah balling which i missed so terribly so =) and he ate the chee cheong fun cum yam cake that have to queue vv long for one, and we shared paper thosai cos it looked so tempting! haha wonderful breakfast. and wells... if u like to shop, u can shop anywhere. even at ghim moh. i bought those beady strings that're coral and light blue =) the kind that u can wear as a belt or as necklace or whatever else. one strand's sitting on my neck now as a necklace! =) wish i had a camera haha.. they were only 3 strands for $6.70! =)

we walked around the area, and snuck into NUS HIGH! the old RJC! haha.. ok snuck isnt the word because we just blatantly walked in past the security post. eee so much for me planning to say how i was there to pick up my bro or whatever. anyhow, the old rj hasnt changed much, except it looks weird to have NUS HIGH logo everywhere where the old RJC logos were. and at every notice board, there're inspirational quotes and phrases plastered all over. the pictures of the kids there look v young, well i guess so since they're like post psle right? haha... much younger than us when we were there. lawrence claims that the girls in NUS HIGH cannot make it. but pls larh. everyone goes through that phase of looking dorky and erm just downright weird during their secondary school days right? haha.. then they hopefully emerge frm sec sch (or later, jc) looking like pretty swans; hopefully =) haha... only ppl like selene looked gorgeous throughout the whole painful growing up years... she doesnt look much diff now than she did then =)

well, we visited the old council room! that has sadly been turned into an art room. our old ccad store still has the old shelves and stuff, but they're stacked with pottery things. mm the welfare room hasnt changed much. they didnt repaint it. even the welfare room sign is still up, and the old shelves, and decorative stuff. i still see ivy's handwriting on some sheet with instructions pinned onto the wall. haha... the track looked the same, black as usual... i was sad that the movable stands i used to study on are gone. the nice shrunken tree with flowers that used to be in front of the council room is gone too.. they repaved lt2.5. its now a mucky rough surface bleah. i feel like bringing a can of paint and throwing it around there. to make it look more normal hahahaha. but nah i shant. nostalgic sia.

went for lunch at bakerzin with mum! ate this really nice mushroom soup with bak kwa pieces inside for lunch cos i wasnt hungry! but it was suuper nice! =) went handbag shopping w her haha din get anything for myself tho, cos i wasnt in the mood to spend $, even tho mum wanted to buy me this really nice pair of wedges from prettyfit, and this pretty pink bag from jane shelton haha... so silly right? shop at ghim moh but dun want to shop at orchard hehe..

then dinner! had nice xiaolongbao, guo tie and various other shanghai dumplings at qun zhong! so nice!

haha nice day with lots of nice food. if i die today, i shall die full and happy =)

lin~*
9:20 pm

Friday, October 07, 2005

ok i officially love fri dance sessions with mr fan so much more! i guess that make sense because on tuesday they focus on technique. but today's is focused on performance. so really can relax and dance properly! and i definitely improved after the last technique session so i guess it worked too! haha another 4.5hrs of dance again tonight... got auditions for some concert next tues. yay. i had a lot of fun. back hurts worse than ever, but i had so much fun i dun really care. =)

thanks for all the nice tags! i feel so happy when i see tt ppl tagged. makes u feel remembered. and noticed. and cared for. thankyou!

lin~*
10:58 pm

You Are A: Pony!

Who doesn't love a pony? You are one of these miniature horses, renown for your beauty and desired by many. Full of grace, you are a beautiful and very special animal, full of strength and majesty.

You were almost a: Monkey or a Duckling
You are least like a: Turtle or a Groundhog The Cute Animals Quiz

lin~*
3:04 pm

mid week this week was terrible. broke down for no reason on wed night, darling lawrence can attest to that; he was did only what every nice bf can do... just held me thruout the whole ordeal. thanks dear. sighs. ended up w puffy eyes thurs morning which sweet miriam tried to console me by telling me all abt water retention from drinking b4 u sleep. thurs was a much better day, w ~5.5hrs of intensive mugging in the lib, followed by fantastic fongseng dinner/supper. the 1st nasi lemak stall u come to at fongseng is great! abit ex tho.. my plate with of nasi lemak rice with ikan bilis, sambal, 1pc chicken and 2 HUGE chilli sotong balls cost $4.50. mad right. bleah but it sure is happifying.

dance again tonight. hope it'll be as happifying as last week's. i place high hopes on mr fan. then the WEEKEND!

lin~*
6:58 am

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

argh and i just realised i cant take my muscle relaxant b4 i sleep because the last time i did, i totally woke up drowsy and sianned. and late for class too. sighs. sighs. sighs. living w a painful back is silly. 4.5hrs of dancing is straining. sighs.

lin~*
12:40 am

horrible terrible evening.

started out a pretty good day... nucleotide metab lecturer finished 1hr early, so we had a 1.5hr break before cardiac ECG lecture, and during then i pleasantly discovered tt lawrence din go to work! so was chatting w him! hahahah... had a spinelli's breakfast roll which turned out to be my only solid food for the day =( studied some in the library in the afternoon, learnt the playhouse indian dance. and since i had so much fun at synergy last fri, i was fervently looking forward to it.

i was wrong.

synergy turned out to be some torture session hahaha... well it wasnt that bad. i learnt how to turn out from my hip joint properly *(albeit the manner they took to make me get there wasnt pretty... grrr) and well did alot of conditioning. problem was that it totally strained my back. my back hurts like hell now. i feel like the day i sprained it. sighs. and to top it up, the moment they "ended", one of the seniors said tt the jrs werent supposed to go yet. and we spent what seemed like eternity (prob abt 20mins) lying on the floor, w our butts against the mirror, and legs open. and they'd periodically come by to make u turn out. which hurt alot. haha.. but it helped def. when they finally said we can close legs, cldnt even close. legs were so numb! hahahha... and after that? suddenly we had to learn this choreography which i dun even noe what for! haha. k it wasnt bad or anything, but i was pissed cos it was freaking late.

lawrence darling waited for me in the carpark for almost 1hr b4 his parents called him to pick them up and he had to go home. so sorry darling. sighs.

anw it was a terrible sesh for me cos i cldnt do many things properly cos my back hurt like shit. anything involving back bends, remotely arching the back, i collasped or lost balance. sighs. shit la. what's wrong w my back???

so at 1015 i finally told them i HAD to leave. cos i was so scared i'd miss the last bus to pgp and i didnt want to walk back all alone in the dark for like 45mins or sthg. so i just left earlier. and was FAMISHED. i mean, i didn eat lunch (ok chocs maybe) after the bread roll, and no dinner. cos was looking forward to asking law to go fongseng/munchies/wherever else with me when we met.

had a tremendous craving for choc. cos i felt SO SHITTY. so i walked to YIH from UCC in the dark, to look for a vending machine there w choc. the only choc it had were m&ms which i dun like. lotsa chips tho. no mars? no snickers? sighs. caught the bus back to pgp, called some ppl along the way for supper but it didnt materalise. came back, and found mango in my plastic bag in the communal fridge, and ate 1 mango and 1 apple. so sian.

then after i showered. nose bleeding. GREAT.

tt's what i hate abt living alone here. no TLC from anyone. u're just totally on ur own, no love, no nothing. i wonder how its like for my darlings overseas: sel, sarah, di, si etcetc... hope they're fine.

lin~*
12:23 am

Sunday, October 02, 2005

traumatised.
was driving along ecp just now when suddenly a few cars in front of me hit a motocycle. the guy (a fairly old man, prob late 50s) flew off the bike and landed on the road. he was motionless. i kept wondering if i shld stop and help, tho i wasnt sure how i cld help. like maybe perform cpr or sthg. i was SO SCARED! in the end, my parents didnt stop. but the ambulance arrived like 5mins later. i mean... i wasnt sure when u can apply cpr. yes so what if we've learnt cpr, if we dunno/dun dare to apply it?? haha and i wasnt sure how off it'd sound to just stop the car and hi, i'm a medical student, maybe i can help. bleah. then oh yes conveniently forget to add in how im a FIRST YEAR medical student, barely what, 2mths? into my medical education. wonder if i'd have done more harm than good. it was just such a terrible dilemna.

but if all doctors chose the apathetic route like i did just now, what wld the world be coming to? ok i guess if i were a proper doc, or at the very least a 3rd/4th year med student, i'd know what to do. but right now? bleah i dunt. tho i wish i did. feel SO useless u noe. like so what if u're receiving medical education if u cant apply it?

sighs feel so terrible and apathetic. i hope the guy is alright.

i wonder what the other m1/2s wld have done if they were in my position.

on a better note, 10 mths anniversary today! happy anniversary darling! =)

lin~*
11:09 am

Saturday, October 01, 2005

thanks to everyone who've expressed concern over my back... haha... well its much better, at least the ribs dun hurt as much when i laugh now. and well my back's given to intermittent spasms of pain only haha so that's much better. yay! =)=)=)

wwell... i think that synergy is DAMN fun. haha i decided to go on friday, despite my reservations that the standard might be too low and everything. hmms. ok i AM like one of the better ones in the whole class by virtue of my dance bg, but that's it. i think that mr fan is a fantastic lao shi haha... and i enjoyed his session soooo much! so much so that i din notice my back hurt until we had a short break abt 2hrs into the session, when i realised tt i was probably killing my back, so i left the class early. hehe... they're CRAZY. i thought that their sessions are like 6-830? but on fri, they dance till 10 or so! wow haha. i wish i cld have stayed till the end yest. i was having SO MUCH FUN! cant remember since when i had so much fun dancing already. certainly not w rgs/rj dance, and definitely not w ballet last time. hmms. salsa maybe. yeah. so i just simply left at 830, and went for dinner at munchies w lawrence (who waited for me at yih for the duration of the prac ~ so nice *grins*)

tired, pale and weak today. think im anaemic (thinks of physio class). bleah haha ohwells.

oh no! herman just told me that when he was in transit over at changi airport to london, he tried calling me (amongst other frens) for 1hr but i din pick up!!! *guilty* sorrysorry!!! and it turned out that i was in the airport seeing liangsi off at the exact same time he was calling me! SO DUMB! bleah.

and im so sorry to the med swim ppl.. that u guys had to scratch the girls relay events just cos i cldnt make it. sorry! feel so guilty. thanks chiara for making me feel better by telling me that we arent accountable to anyone. but well, we arent. but i'm accountable to u guys and to the other ppl who hoped that we'd put in a good showing at this ifg... =(

lin~*
6:05 pm