lavanderblues

Thursday, April 27, 2006

im just too tired and confused.

one moment i get an email frm a close friend that passionately tells me its all a bad idea (for misunderstood, unjustified, reasons), and scolds me for going out of my way and against my parents' approval to do it, and makes me upset and worried all day.

the next i get smses from another close friend that thanks me for doing it, and that her family thinks its a wonderful idea, and everything.

and yet after that i reach home, and that upsetting email is resent again with points highlighted this time.

so what the hell is it?

im too tired to care.

lin~*
5:36 pm

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

tired tired tired, but tremendously happy.
finally got the church and priest for joan's mass worked out. In case u havent gotten the email already, it is this sat, 29 Apr, 9am at the Church of Our Lady Star of the Sea in Yishun.
everyone's been so helpful, esp since i know nuts about organising a Mass. I didnt even know what goes on in a Mass. but i had a crash course in half an hr, and im glad to say i at least know enuff to try and organise what they need, and let the Catholics do the rest =)
and im truly amazed by the spontaniety and helpfulness of all the Catholics i've come across in the past 2 days trying to org this thing. last night, lawrence's dad drove us from queensway to upper bkt timah, to yishun, back to queensway before lawrence drove me back home in east coast, just to get the church and priest. and people have been really agreeable when i ask for their help/participation. im truly touched.

i hope the venue can fit all the people whom i think are coming. i hope people come to pray for her.

i hope shufang stays strong and optimistic like i heard she has been doing. i dont really want to try and visit her, because i have an idea of how much more this time left means to her family and much closer friends. and i dont want to place additional strain and stuff on her and her tired-out mum already.

many ppl have asked me what this mass is about. joan wont be there, nor her family i think. i dont expect them to come larh. its just for people, anyone really, who want to pray for her, to come and pray for her. i suppose there's nothing much more we bystanders can do already, but to pray in her faith for her wellbeing, and that she and her family finds the strength to get through this period.

lin~*
9:03 am

Sunday, April 23, 2006

(disclaimer - food post ahead!)

the bread and butter french toast pudding i made today. nice! aunty even brought home an extra slab. hahaha. whee

and at da paolo gastronomie, the gourmet food outlet at chip bee gardens, i found MERINGUES! so fun! =) these are rose flavoured meringues. really pretty, and very sweet! gosh. sweetness to the core. haha. i enjoyed them, but couldnt eat too much at a go. bleah haha.

anw, im REALLY touched by the response i've received abt the mass im trying to organise for shufang. em, andrew, lawrence have been really helpful with their advice on churches (since i obviously know zilch about catholic practices), and dom actually called me up at 11pm after he read my email and after he discussed the thing with brenda, to advice me on what i can do (gosh im immensely touched), and yun, who has been helping me liase with shufang's friends. and ppl have rsvped mere minutes of me sending my emails out. gosh. im quite surprised really. i hope things go well, and the novena church lets us hold it there. please do rsvp k? i wld like to be able to gauge the response level, so we can know how large (or small) scale we can prepare for. thanks dears!

lin~*
9:45 pm

wonderful lunch buffet at raffles hotel over the weekend. my tua ee and mak ee came over from msia, and my parents decided to bring us all out for a treat! =)

a picture of me, mum and my aunts!

daddy, with the waiters/chefs zooming around behind him. haha... the food was great, as usual, and the ambience simply perfect for relaxing and conducive for conversation.

oh and everyone, this is my darling dearest grandma, whom i call popo. she came to sg when i was born because my gong gong had passed away just shortly before i was born. she took care of me from birth till now, when both my parents came to work, and now she is 80+ closer to 90, and is still healthy, thankfully. love her loads.

a pretty pic of a pink flower taken in one of the raffles hotel foilages.

lin~*
9:22 pm

Friday, April 21, 2006

had a wonderful time blading with lawrence yesterday. my darling didnt really need much teaching. his cousin already did that 4yrs ago =) but still hahaha he fell more than me! i only fell once.

but i had an unfair advantage because the skates he rented were somehow screwy. one wheel was sticky and didnt turn very well and kept getting stuck and making him lose his balance. bleah. poor baby.

before ballroom - dinner at coffee club at raffles city! during ballroom, we learnt how to go ard the room with foxtrot steps, and polished our waltz! =) i hope we learn more variations for the dances. i forsee myself getting really bored with just the basic step around.

god. im so really going to miss him when he leaves for US in aug. =(

had another great day today. shall post about it only later.
i hear the med ppl (meya and vali) are organising a potluck for the meddies on monday at ecp. hai shld i go? who's going?
and a resolution. i've really been spending too much. STOP spending $ huilin.

lin~*
9:40 am

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

yesterday was a total blast! rollerblading in the morning with cel and some of the med ppl, which was followed by lunch at le viet (healthy and delish beef slice noodles!) then shower at my place, and shopping in town with celene dearest! =) v fruitful shopping trip - 1 pretty hairband, a dress and 2 tees. cel and my purchases from topshop together even got us a topshop card! haha whoopee. not that i shop there much, but it can come in handy =) woah tiring but it was uber fun =) yay!

me in my skates!

i fell down. hahahaha. in total 3x from the trip from the skate place to bedok jetty and back. a tremendous amt of effort from me i tell u, considering this is my first time and i was constantly lagging and trying to catch up with the pro-er rest of them.

woohoo the first-timers (and laggers) me and zj. at this point i think i had just fallen down for the 3rd time, and well, i screamed. which made him fall reflexively too. we had just picked ourselves up, and this photo was taken by a very amused cel who was waiting for us to catch up with her =) i was on the grass cos i pick myself up there. somehow if i try to get up on the concrete path, i just slip again. so i will crawl v pitifully to the side and climb up.

grp photo at the destination pt bedok jetty! everyone looks so nice.

me and celene! my blading teacher =) she did a great job tho im still very slow and unstable haha...

lin~*
10:04 am

Monday, April 17, 2006

have u ever thought about this: just WHAT IF. one day. something happens, and takes away everything and everyone you hold nearest and dearest to you. just what if. im terrified. i have this premonition that somehow its just all going to end, and everything around me now is just too good to be true.

i wonder what its like to die. knowing that that is the last time you close your eyes, the last breath you take. its just such a freaky thought.

lawrence says that i cant live life paralysed by these thoughts and fears.

but shldnt i cherish every moment more, knowing that it might just be the last?

lin~*
7:32 pm

Saturday, April 15, 2006

frm the last few days:

shopping in town with cel. my first foray into orchard road since pros. really fun! haha... had ballroom after that, and learnt the basics of the foxtrot, alongside brushing up our waltz.

drinks at menotti after ballroom. my darling boy and our champagne w white peach (my first cocktail!)

and my favourite kind of water - sparkling st pellagrano. that's my hand holding the cup btw. the bf said he was taking a photo of me, end up take the bubbles only. cheyyy. smile for nothing =P

lunch at crystal jade korean place @ centrept today. WONDERFUL beef. it was the prime rib cut or something like that. i cant remember, it was the one in the big picture on the meats for bbq pg.

wonderfully marinated, just grilled lightly on the table grill, and cut into pieces, eaten with lettuce and a few sauces. SO HEAVENLY. SO TENDER. SO JUICY. SO TASTY. goodness. i've never been this crazy about a piece of beef before. woohoo... pretty ex tho. one plate w 4 slices cost $24. but gosh i loved it SO MUCH. still dreaming of it here.

mum and me =)

lin~*
12:27 am

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

today's apple kuchen.
somewhat mixed reviews - e soma ppl had hardly any comment, tho kaixiang did say it was nice haha... my parents and lawrence loved it. i wonder if there is some bias around there =P oh i know why. my parents and lawrence had it hot. the others didnt. that prob explains it. haha... whatever larh. it looked GORGEOUS. =) in my opinion of course. haha...

long long long queue at the east coast park hawker centre for satay beehoon. i waited for 25mins behind this siao guy who kept turning around to stare at me (UGH)... but it was OH SO WORTH IT. absolutely delish, lawrence n i savoured every drip of the sauce. great dinner with satay beehoon, cuttlefish kangkong and bbq chicken wings! hahaha... no photos tho. we gobbled it all up, plus it was too dark.

soma is starting to show some progress. FINALLY. covering our hands with charcoal dust to determine if the kids' handwashing methods are good should work. and we're going to try to make soap in my house next wednesday. SCARY. the lot better not burn my house down HAHAHA. no i shld be more worried abt KE7 because weiming wants to burn wood there to get wood ash, which we need to leach to make lye (which is a caustic sodium hydroxide powder), which we need to make soap.

yesterday was a whole slack-at-home-uber-movie-marathon. watched bewitched the movie, the first wives club, and in her shoes. then this morning was calendar girls. you can see that i like girl power happifying chick flicks. but HEY you dont need a brain to watch these. and right now, i dont want to use my brain after 7 mths of overuse thankyou. ice age 2 later! whee!

ballroom tmr, and shopping with cel before that! i cant wait already! =)

lin~*
10:55 pm

Monday, April 10, 2006

went to msia for ching ming jie over the weekend. and watched a bug's life 2.5 times, ice age 1 and chicken little. blame my 4yr old cousin who insisted that i play those dvds for her over and over again. almost died of cutesyness. not that i minded.

rushed back on sunday to meet my buddies from my RJ council buddy line. from left is - Jovine 21st, Jason (i have no idea, prob 18th or sthg), Jonathan (24th), Dennis (22th), Huilin (23rd)! haha... a couple couldnt make it. aaron tong the 20th was on post call, the 25th was busy, and the 19th is still in the US and the rest we lost touch with them already. really fun! my pro little buddy got GIC scholarship and a place at LSE! woohoo! and my nice big buddy got me a tea towel from NZ! so nice =)

then i went and got a perm today. hahahahaha. ok. i was bored with my hair and the way it flips out at the end. so rather than straightening which can be rather flat and boring, i got a perm. Random pangs of nerves that my hair would turn out to be like some curly bush came upon me whilst the lady was applying the curlers and chemicals. but as u can see, it wasnt TOO BAD. still getting used to it. Hope i dont look like some aunty person.

the hols rock man. and PHEW i dint get anat supps. hope i dont get the rest either. im tonnes more worried abt biochem and physio than i am abt anat. sighs.

lin~*
7:08 pm

Friday, April 07, 2006

the soma ppl and a few of the og friends came over this afternoon/evening. great opportunity to bake =)
everyone was like sianning about the upcoming vivas list. really hope me (nor anyone else) ends up on that dreaded list. sighs. fun to catch up with people though. oh and celene brought us to eat REALLY GOOD beef kway teow at siglap. marcus had an interesting banter with the stall uncle who kept coming over to ask how his kway teow compared with his rival's at purvis street. HAHA. bitchy competition there. but his was seriously good. i havent tried the purvis st one tho.

guys, thanks for popping by today. esp zhenjin for coming ALL THE WAY down from school after malay. and cel, who got lost here, and marcus who bought horshua and zhen nice and ex prawn mee... and zhen for rushing over the moment u woke up, and horshua for erm slicing the nice vine tomatoes, and weimin who totally got lost at some ulu jalan something and like enming who lives nearby. and like other ppl too.
i was kinda scared no one wld turn up cos nobody rsvped, and liwei and bean chose to stay home to mug. GUYS, ITS THE HOLS MAN!?! ok im starting to sound pathetic.

i made a nice-looking tomato puff pastry tart, which turned soggy after awhile cos of the juicy vine tomatoes. and nice choc cake, which i felt was slightly dry. didnt take photo of the cake, cos it wasnt very interesting to look at.

the leftover puff pastry i used to make an apple dessert tart/puff thingey for my parents later after the friends left.

fun day. have to wake up at 4am to go to msia tmr for ching ming jie. sighs.

oh and my darling got 6th in his google india programming comp in bangalore where he is now! soo proud of u darling! whee!

lin~*
10:42 pm

Thursday, April 06, 2006

the past 7 mths in a flash...

i've broken down and just cried, tears pouring out, unable to stop, more times than i ever have in my life put together before august began. with an average rate of once a week.

i've mugged harder than ever. which is kinda a miracle since i used to mug really hard in jc.

i've managed to miraculously look panda eyed tired even after many days of 6hrs sleep, just from studying.

i've been snacking and gorging loads ( i eat more than lawrence half the time, oh and zhenjin too) and i still manage to lose weight.

i've never experienced worse pms before now. used to be invincible and immune from the pms monster.

in 7 mths, i took on a whole new vocab (the diversion at AYE became a "diverticulum")

i made a whole bunch of new friends. ppl whom i wouldnt trade for anything else. ppl who've helped to pull me through the past few months. love u guys.

i've learnt more than i ever really expected to learn abt the human body. whoosh. read ENTIRE textbooks. and still barely touched the surface.

oh i got interested in food. and eating.

i feel older, and tireder.

i've missed my girlfriends and my old way of life ALOT.

hms. ok whatever.

celebrated the end of examies yesterday with the bunch at fish n co suntec. pictures courtesy of bean cos i forgot to bring my cam.

me and pretty boy zhenjin and the table salads. marcus and bean made me laugh very hard whilst they were taking the shot.

some of the rest of the bunch.

finally i walk around town and see other meddies around. bah its been too long man. forgot how the air of a shopping centre smells like alr. whoosh.

lin~*
10:43 pm

Sunday, April 02, 2006

4 silly more days. To a 4 MONTH LONG BREAK that possibly includes (ALOT) of ballroom dancing, FRANCE!, MYANMAR!, possibly somewhere with the bestest girlfriends, lots of sleep (FINALLY), lots of lawrence (whee!), and lots of everyone else too! i cant wait. 4 more days till it all begins. bah.

4 sillypilly more days. =(

lin~*
8:20 am