lavanderblues

Monday, November 15, 2004

GAH.

hai. dint manage to study much last night... lay in bed cramping and trying to read physics notes. finished all of 3 chapts (that is chapt1, 2, and 3.. which is like nothing) before i dozed off and woke up when lawrence msged me at 2. w the phone vibrating in my ear. GAH.
and there's maths paper2 tmr. i somehow have to muster up the resolve and stamina to study and make sure i do okay for it. GAH again.
long breaks dont do you much good. they put u in a lull where you momentarily believe that you dont actually have to study for a long time yet... and so you slack the whole stretch away. SO... i have my doubts on how my alevel results will turn out. GAH. this is dumb. work so freaking hard for so many years only to waste it all away now. sad right. hai. i used to mug >10hrs a day. now? haha i'd be lucky if i even make 5. bleah.

brendan (my selffar) is telling me about his upcoming trip to India where he'll be climbing the himalayas, doing cip and stuff liddat. ENVIOUS. and baorong will be going to obs korea in dec/jan too! ENVIOUS again. wanted to sign up for obs korea, cos its a winter expedition etc.. but WELL, cldn't to spare the two thousand bucks it costs. so yarh. stay in hot sunny singapore, maybe spend a wk or two in penang, maybe go somewhere w parents etcetc. hai and we were supposed to go skiing in vancouver. i miss skiing, even tho the most i've been is the baby-intermediate slopes in austria and salt lake city. but its nice all the same.

oh anyone wants to go penang w me? free accomodation at my penang ahma's place (traditional nonya housing) or aunts' place (condo/bungalow/terrace hse.. take your pick). haha..

lin~*
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