lavanderblues

Monday, May 23, 2005

nus nus nus.... i'm slightly sian about havin to go there... but its not as though my parents are forcing me to... dad's very diplomatically giving me the option to go anywhere i want... even london. basically i've got to choose between nus, imperial, queen mary, and melbourne. nus, imp and mel are pretty good options. so i'm stuck.

but for cost reasons, cos i would never ever overcome my guilt if i made my parents pay close to $600 000 for my mbbs-bsc in imperial, or $400 000 for an mbbs-bsc in melbourne, i might just choose nus. not like they can't particularly afford it, but i just cannot make them do it. yeah.

but i dun really want nus. i want to go someplace exotic, where i wont have to worry about every cent i spend (scholarship), where i can experience 4 seasons, have a hell lot of fun at school away from home (i'm so sick of having to mug my brains out), and experience a whole new culture and surroundings. i feel sian about having studied so hard all my life, worked so hard to be all-rounded, to have pretty good results cum cca record, etcetc, and still having to go to nus. no doubt its medicine. but STILL...

so maybe i'm just overcoming my sianness abt having to study in someplace i'm just liddat about... by like making myself happy by spending on other stuff i want. sigh.

i dint exactly tear into the envelope from nus when it arrived, containing the admissions, freshman info. i havent even read it to be honest. dunno.

i think i'm in denial about going there. 14 more days till i have to go press "accept" on the nus website.

lin~*
8:46 pm