lavanderblues

Sunday, August 27, 2006

the lazy sunday morning

gosh. this is the perfect lazy sunday morning to sleep in. yet i cant anymore. futilely trying to force myself to absorb the wise words of robbins, katzung, levinson and fitzgerald, with the lulling sounds of raindrops drumming into my roof above me. my room is atmospheric. its dim and cool, with only my study lamp on - just the way i love it... lots to anticipate today. friends coming, another (hopefully not too-short as always) chat with lawrence when he comes online at the end of his day...

last night at dinner, i was telling my parents about m2. a little about the tracks we study... about PBL, and such. there was this other gentleman, bald, in a red shirt sitting near my dad obviously listening in, with a bemused expression on his face. it made me wonder... is he just another member of the public interested in unveilling the curtain around medical studies, or more scarily, is he some doctor/professor-type, amusedly listening in to a naive student talking enthusiastically about her studies with barely an inkling of what's to come.

jolted awake abruptly this morning, with yet another dream/nightmare whereby someone's trying to threaten the freedom and lives of my family and i. this one involved relatives and a machine gun (dont ask me what type, i am clueless abt such things), and a plot to escape through my parents' room window to the neighbours'. i hate these dreams, yet they come too frequently. perhaps an indication of my subconscious fear of something. i dont know.

shall return to patho. else my weekend will be burnt with no studying done at all. sighs.

lin~*
10:13 am