lavanderblues

Thursday, November 23, 2006

horrible. =/

sucks when the majority of the people you love are far far away, and there's hardly anyone to go to when u feel vulnerable because they are 1. traipsing around niagara falls with friends old and new, 2. studying vvv hard which stresses you out completely, 3. you've already bothered them and cant anymore else they'll think you're insane or 4. just too busy or not there.

doesnt help too when you have relatives in the house invading your personal and study space, and you cant coherently place the reasons for why you hate them so much into words that would make anyone else understand your position without first thinking you're a selfish unloving freak. relatives who treat your house as a free hotel, available for them to stay as long as they like, or to bring whoever they like there. its my fucking house, damnit.

im glad i dont have siblings. no obligations to people i dont like in the future, unlike my poor poor parents with 10 sets each.

smu is so nice its positively unfair that nus looks and feels like such a dump. if it werent for the medical school, and the wonderful people there, id hate it to bits.

i'm a wrecked up jangle of hormones right now. dont step on my toes.

miss you. 1 more mth to wait is simply too long.

lin~*
9:55 pm