lavanderblues

Sunday, April 10, 2005

dunno what to say

dunno what i can say here... seems like everything i want to say is kinda whiny...
like do i want to whine about how i need $568 250 to study 6yrs in imperial? or how i've been grossly overeating lately? or how nus tests and exams are upon me and i havent gathered enough gall to study? haha
dunno?
*shrugs*
the easiest word to say ain't it?
everyone seems to be getting on with their life pretty well or so it seems... i miss the hustlebustle of school, where you meet your best friends every single day... now its just you and you alone. like YOU. and the REST OF THE WORLD. good luck. envision a little girl standing on a lone shore facing a harried city like nyc, in kinda a video game fashion. then ROUND ONE. and she starts running towards the city (that is the world) and gets lost in its myriad of happenings haha...
but its not so bad for me, i have to say im a lucky girl... for eg. unlike many others who have "absent boyfriends", mine is constantly present, and im so thankful for that. makes me feel so unlonely. and well, most ppl work 9-5 daily, i slack maybe 2 days a week.. relatively at least..
yeah.
im gonna miss shu en when she leaves for aust in 2wks time... for a long long time... miss talking to her everyday in school... persuading her to run, gaying around w her in our own ts right before the exams... etc. many close friends are going overseas... good for them, sad for me too haha...
and HMMM. i feel so detached from the dance ppl. no wonder i never really felt any oomph for rj dance... cos there're vv few ppl from our batch with whom i can connect properly even on a conversational basis. just sooo... different, on different frequencies and all.. well at least they dunt hate me. dancers can be so bitchy sometimes. ugh.. but the activity itself is still fun yes haha... fun fun fun!
k must dance more. burn all that extra calories that im ingesting haha..

lin~*
9:39 pm