lavanderblues

Sunday, October 02, 2005

traumatised.
was driving along ecp just now when suddenly a few cars in front of me hit a motocycle. the guy (a fairly old man, prob late 50s) flew off the bike and landed on the road. he was motionless. i kept wondering if i shld stop and help, tho i wasnt sure how i cld help. like maybe perform cpr or sthg. i was SO SCARED! in the end, my parents didnt stop. but the ambulance arrived like 5mins later. i mean... i wasnt sure when u can apply cpr. yes so what if we've learnt cpr, if we dunno/dun dare to apply it?? haha and i wasnt sure how off it'd sound to just stop the car and hi, i'm a medical student, maybe i can help. bleah. then oh yes conveniently forget to add in how im a FIRST YEAR medical student, barely what, 2mths? into my medical education. wonder if i'd have done more harm than good. it was just such a terrible dilemna.

but if all doctors chose the apathetic route like i did just now, what wld the world be coming to? ok i guess if i were a proper doc, or at the very least a 3rd/4th year med student, i'd know what to do. but right now? bleah i dunt. tho i wish i did. feel SO useless u noe. like so what if u're receiving medical education if u cant apply it?

sighs feel so terrible and apathetic. i hope the guy is alright.

i wonder what the other m1/2s wld have done if they were in my position.

on a better note, 10 mths anniversary today! happy anniversary darling! =)

lin~*
11:09 am